I've been watching too much Dexter.

For real. I know this because this fucking retarded show has me comparing myself to other people. As in "I'm different because _______."

Nooooo I'm not a serial killer and have no desire to even remotely hurt people. Well unless of course my life or the life of a family member is being threatened. But this was not my point...

Dexter constantly puts himself up against other people and notices the huge gap.
All emo shit aside... I can relate. There's this sense that you are somehow cut from a different cloth, somewhere along the way you learned something different that in turn made you different. I am not Dexter though in the sense that I am not so deep into my own way of thinking that I have developed a psychosis. I am able to think outside the box and relate to those whom can hardly do the same in return.

It's been very rare to come across people that I can hold to that same regard. Very few people get it. Those whom I have met are obviously my closest friends. Not always my longest friends but indeed my closest. So, when one of those people has been lost, it feels like a piece of the puzzle went missing. The puzzle being the bigger picture of course. These people somehow manage to help you see things in yourself that you never noticed. Dexter has/had these people also. We all need those people.

In a sense the best of these people end up being a companion & in turn your spouse and/or mate. Yet it's best to clarify that in my reality, it's not so much the person who can understand you; but more the person who is like you. To me, Anything besides the person like you... is just a person that is judging you. Judging and relating are two very different things. I feel you need to relate to a human to truly connect with them. You need to see yourself in someone else.

Eventually in typical "Love stories," this then leads to that pair being so connected they're emotions work in unison. Subsequently to truly care would mean that person's happiness becomes your own, and your happiness helps them thrive.

I honestly know nothing about that common denominator.



-A